I was once asked if I practiced what I preach in regard to what I write on the blog. My answer was that yes I did, as much as possible.
But recently, I don’t think I have practiced what I preach as well as I might. Life has felt out of balance and my body has let me know via headaches and a ‘fuzzy’ head for want of another word!
Weeks ago my Man informed me that I was using the word ‘should’ a lot. Sentences like:
“I should be going for a run.”
“I should be sorting out all the things in the shed.”
“I should catch up with this person.”
“I should not be feeling like this.”
It is such a harsh and unkind word that traps.
Yesterday I took a long solitary walk along the beach. Spring has thought about appearing in my part of the world and it was beautiful. As I walked I started thinking, “What if I only did the things I needed to do and the things I wanted to do?”
That whole idea has been incredibly freeing. As I am faced with situations the questions “Do I need to do this? Do I want to do this?” have helped my decision making and somehow given me more space in my mind.
It seems like a graceful way to live. It has taken away some of the rules that I have harshly put on myself. I am hoping that it will enable me to have more time with less hustle and bustle. I am hoping that it will help me to be a better parent as I live more in the now with my family.
It may mean that there will be less blogging so that I can actually live out the things that I have been reading. Instead of the pressure of trying to put a blog up each Tuesday, it will be “Do I need to share this information? Do I want to share this information?” That will be the test.
Thanks for your kind ongoing support. I just hope that some of the things I share are an encouragement to you.
Love R x